29. The Ring (again...)

got another good picture of it so i just had to share....... :)

28. 2 Slices of Heaven

27.Golden

we joined a gym!


after checking out a few establishments we decided on Gold's Gym. i was really impressed with their staff, the equipment, the class options (super excited to do yoga and pilates) - they also have a private section for woman only! that was a huge plus for me - it's just more comfortable for me. it's right off the woman's locker room and the equipment is really nice! the locker rooms were also a bonus - no mass row of showers - very private. chris was impressed with the pool - he's missed it since we moved from our last place that had one.


so yeah - we are going to get rid of that "happy/nesting" fat that we accumulated after we started dating!


and now we're going to enjoy a relaxing evening at home (chris is on squad). make some dinner. watch Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix, research our honeymoon to Greece...etc....

26. NEW!

we have a new wedding website!


i would like to thank all of you for your suggestions. i went with mywedding.com for a number of reasons (music and unimited photo options being a huge plus). i think it's pretty easy to navigate but i guess i'll need your feedback on this.....


so there ya have it - check it out! :)

25. Pretty Please

can i please go back to bed??

24. Crack

chris and i are on crack. well, mainly me. we're going to the midnight premiere of the X-Files movie.

when we first saw the trailer on tv chris was super excited - i had no idea he was x-files fan. i myself never got into it while the show was on - i didn't consider myself to be a fan of the whole sci-fi thing. then one christmas (or new years - i can't remember) day my mom and i got caught up in an x-files marathon and i fell in love with it. (i also now love sci-fi) so i was pretty excited about the movie as well....

chris has never been to a midnight premiere. i've done a few (mainly harry potter ones) and loved them. they're just fun - especially when they're of the cultish variety. so i kinda talked him into doing this and now i'm thinking i must have been on crack becuase it's 10 to 10 and i'm ready for bed. so sleepy!

ah well. tomorrow is friday - just have to make it through the work day and then it's sleep central!

23. Stiff Neck

i've gone and done it. stressed myself to the point where it literally pains me to move my neck.


fuck...i hate my job.

22. Cupcakes!

i love to bake. (i also love to eat cake batter)

i decided it would be a fantastic idea to bake about 800 cupcakes (not really that many...) for a co-workers birthday tomorrow. it's very hot and very humid and this probably wasn't the best idea i've ever had. but i still had fun.

now i'm off to go frost :)

21. One of These Topics Does Not Belong.....

so.....


i'm at work today with james (the talker). i think he's started to get the hint that i don't care to chat and so he's backed off. that and he's distracted from watching the television he carries in each and every day to watch such enlightening shows as Tyra, Dr. Phil and Oprah. let it be known that i cannot stand any of these shows - dr. phil especially.*


for the most part of i've learned to tune it out but today i walked into something i was not prepared for. i went to wash out a few of my lunch dishes and came back to hear Oprah's favorite gynecologist (do people actually put those in a favorite category?) on. the topic being discussed at that moment just happened to be finding your clitoris. i turned around and walked upstairs to chat with a co-worker for the next 20 minutes until my shift ended.


i hate to make fun of him because i really think he just doesn't get it. things that click in normal people completely bypass this man. i just couldn't stand to sit in that hot cramped little space with him smelling like sweat listening to someone like oprah talk about having an orgasm. not work appropiate. (i didn't bother saying anything to anyone as i'd probably be told to just step outside my comfort zone again....please....)




*people who go on that show (and indeed many who watch it) need a massive slap across the face and also to be sterilized from producing anymore of their kind. sorry - but it had to be said.

20. In Other News....

Holy Crap! Our Wedding is in less than 300 days!


i'll post more about wedding related things at a later date - but in the meantime - i need suggestions about wedding websites. i'm not happy with the one i'm currently using (ewedding). i'm finding it annoying to navigate and so are some other people i've talked to.


so - send me your suggestions! thanks :)

19. Rough Start

today - like most days i guess - i did not want to go to work. but since 'turning this new leaf' and trying not to complain/hate my job i tried to figure out why. why i've dreaded (often times to the point of tears) going to work. it's happened at pretty much every job i've ever had. i think i have an idea....


anxiety


i suffered from it in college - to the point where i physically could not leave my dorm. i've felt attacks a couple of times since - usually at social gatherings where i may only know one person and am just 'out of my element' (aka knitting on the couch). it can be pretty severe in the mornings before work (although the tears have been absent thank goodness) but usually by mid day i've calmed down. i don't know if it's anxiety - i don't feel particulary anxious about being around co-workers and people coming in. i think the anxiety stems from not wanting to leave home. i'd be much happier and content to stay put. not that i want to become a hermit - far from it. but being 'forced' to leave somehow bothers me.


i know how lame all this might sound. i'm 27 years old. i'll have to do some research into this and see if i'm onto something. i think i've tried to explain that anxiety away by dumping it out as a hatred of my actual job - when in reality i don't (well i do but not as much as you might be led to believe reading this blog or talking to me).


so....those are my ponderings for the day. thoughts? anyone else out there have (or have had) issues with anxiety?

18. Updates

so......where to begin....


my dad is doing alright. i ended up driving up on friday morning to be there during his angioplasty. everything went very smoothly. the doctor explained everything to us and let us know what needed to be done - mom seems pretty determined to make sure everything sticks so that makes me happy. i know for a lot of people it seems like a no-brainer....he has to work out and eat right! but how many of us actually get around to sticking to that change. we do it for a couple of weeks and then kinda fall off track. granted most of us don't have such extreme circumstances but often times having those makes the changes even harder. so - i'm just hoping they make a good go of it and becomes a lifestyle change. i want them both around for many many years to come!


on saturday evening chris and i atteneded the wedding of a fellow firefighter. everything was going dandy until the father daughter dance begun. i think it all hit me then - the severity of the whole situation. i was actually suprised at how calm i'd been considering what an emotional freak i am most of the time. as soon as they started dancing though i lost it. chris took me outside and we walked and talked until i felt better and was able to return. so yeah - it's tough.


wow. yeah......


in other news - i had an interview at the history center. i didn't tell anyone about it so as not to jinx it but well....didn't matter. when i arrived she let me know right away that they had posted the position wrong - it was not a full time permenant position but rather a part time temporary! ugh. whatever though - i still wanted it. ticketing, answering phones, and doing coat check for an upcoming exhibit. i got the call today - evidently i'm not qualified enough to check coats. double ugh.


but...i'm trying not to wallow in self pity. trying. i'm also going to try and stop freaking out about how much i hate my job. the things i complain about are petty and retarded. i inherited my dads temper and seeing how much his blood pressure affects his health and just everything has made me realize i need to calm down. i know this won't happen over night but i'll work on it. perhaps i'll learn yoga.


more later.......

17. An Explanation

so my blog yesterday may have left a few of you wondering just what the heck was going on....


i got a call from my mom yesterday after work informing me that my dad had suffered a heart attack and was being flown from the canadian resort he was visiting back to duluth. this of course set me into a panic - i won't divulge his medical history on the web but suffice it to say this was not his first (or second) heart attack.


luckily chris was home last night and so i had someone to pass the time with while awaiting another phone call from my mom. when she finally called she assured me that he was okay and they would performing a series of tests on him today (which they'll actually be doing tomorrow i found out).


in the meantime....we wait. i don't even really know what to say. i worry about my parents health constantly and getting a phone call like that.....


i'll keep you posted. no more cryptic blogs...i promise.

16. So Much....

so much i planned to say when i got home and then the unexpected happens.


i don't have the energy to write it all out. i just want to sit with chris and have my phone near.....

15. Bummed

today was supposed to be good. i had big plans. yet here i sit in my undies blogging. wtf.


i don't really feel like discussing why i'm bummed - i just am. hopefully i'll find a way to rekindle that light at the end of my tunnel - anyone got a blowtorch?

14. Story of the Ring (Part 2)

i've been trying to get a good picture of it but they all turn out pretty blurry (crappy camera's...or crappy operators i suppose...). i was looking through my recently uploaded photos and saw this - a decent picture of the ring! normally i wouldn't post such a flattering picture of myself but.....

i'm hoping i can get some better pictures soon - but until that time here is a glimpse! i'm super happy with it (a bit suprised at how big it turned out but still super happy!)

p.s. if you're new to the blog and want to know the full story of the ring check this out.

13. And They're Off!

yesterday chris and i met bryan, kari, tory and their family at Running Aces Harness Park. we'd never been to the races and didn't quite know what to expect but ended up having a pretty good time :)

chris and kari learned how to place bets (kari was much better at this). i think she ended up actually making a good profit while chris and i - well....we did not...

watching their little boy tory run around was great! he is super adorable! (baby fever is coming back......) all in all it was just great to see them. i didn't get a chance to know them very well before they moved out to utah and now i wish they lived a bit closer. guess that just means that chris and i'll will have to plan a vacation sometime soon...after the wedding...and after the honeymoon..and after we have vacation time...and money...so...uh...come back soon Bryan & Kari! (it might be awhile before we make it out there!)


i also learned that the race track is a fantastic place to people watch. i'd go back again just to do that - you see all kinds there :)

12. Wandering....

today is one of those saturdays where chris works and i'm left to my own devices.


i woke up a little before 10 and have fallen into my normal 'chris works saturday routine' of knitting and watching history channel shows about nazi's or the bible (do they ever have anything else on?).


i'm attempting to get myself in 'DO SOMETHING' mode! cleaning. exercising. i got myself into the room where the treadmill is but then i sat down at the computer and started blogging. i really just want to sit and knit more - i know i'm accomplishing something by doing that but it doesn't really feel like it.


alright - enough talking. i must get on the treadmill (aka return to the couch and craft)!




p.s. hope you all had a wonderful 4th of july! chris and i spent the day visiting kelly and christian and then we saw chris's best man bryan and his wife kari. we did not end up seeing any fireworks - chris was on squad and so we had to stick pretty close to home. instead we watched the sci-fi channel's 24 hour Twlight Zone marathon. i love that show.

11. I Can't Sleep....

i have a week day off. i long for these days - when i can sleep in. instead i find myself up at 6am...and having nightmares about my wedding dress!


i have that pit of regret feeling in my stomach. not about buying the dress (so calm down mom - cause i can see the look of panic on your face from here!). i love my dress. the only thing i regret is not trying on more. i would have still bought the same dress but it's just that i was really getting into the whole fun of it all and i just wish i had tried on more - especially while my mom was down. i mean - you only get to do this once in your life....


it'll pass. it comes and goes. i just wish it would pass now so i could fall back asleep!

10. It's Here (too)!!

the jeweler called chris yesterday - my ring is finally finished! (only took seven weeks...)


tonight after work we're going to go pick it up!! i am SO excited! (hopefully i can get some good pictures of it with my camera :))