120. Z

cramps : check

cold grey day : check

sore muscles : check

lack of work to do : check

cramps : check

cramps : check


today would be an awesome day to just go home. crack the bedroom window open for that cool air and pitter patter of rain. to crawl into bed and sleep. sleep. sleep.......

117. Birds

i don't hate birds by any means. not at all. but this morning i could have strangled two of them if i had been given the chance.....


i had another headache going to bed last night. while it wasn't extremely painful it was there and made it difficult to get a good sleep. this morning - an hour before my alarm went off - this bird starts at it. i don't know what it's called. i've heard it my entire life. it's always annoyed me. it sounds like a squeaky door hinge that someone just keeps opening and closing and opening and closing. weet (higher note) weet (lower note). pause. weet. weet. pause. weet. weet. etc.....


finally i was able to block it a bit and fall back asleep. then the woodpecker came. it's been here for about 3 weeks now and i swear is jack hammering into our apartment building. it's so close. i can feel it. and so loud!


all i wanted was to enjoy that last hour of sleep. stupid birds.


on a completely different note: ONLY 12 DAYS UNTIL WE GET MARRIED! AHHH!!

93. 9:54 a.m.

i'm more awake now. not enough to think of a more creative title though....


how about an update?


- i had a dress fitting appointment this past saturday. you might remember me mentioning that last time i tried on the dress i had about six boobs. that is gone. it fits! i need to tone up my arms a bit more and could probably stand to lose an inch around my middle but that shouldn't be a problem at all. very happy :)
- chris and i looked at more tux's and i think i've finally made up my mind. :)
- i've ordered my bouquet. not going to say anything yet other than it's not flowers. and that i'm very excited about it.
- i found a guestbook on etsy that's super cute and was only $10 :)
- the invitations were mailed - i mentioned that. when we came back from duluth this weekend we already had 3 RSVP's! :)


hmmm.....


guess that's all i can manage right now. i think my spurt of being semi-awake is fading and i'm now starting to daydream about a nap after work. ah...sleep... :)

92. Zzzzzzz.....

i feel so exhausted. moving takes major concentration. i just want to sleep for about two days straight right now.....


unfortunately i have to go to work.


but as soon as i get home i'm jumping into bed. a nice nap is needed.


stupid cold.

59. So.....

....i haven't blogged in awhile.


what have i been doing in the meantime you ask?


well. i've been extremely busy not working out. not getting prepared for my wedding - which is now 175 days away. not cleaning. not finishing crafty projects. not keeping in better contact with friends. not eating healthy. you know...the usual....


perhaps i need to get more of a routine going. and perhaps that routine could involve blogging. working out - must work out! i may have mentioned it before but i currently am sporting six boobs in my wedding dress. six. i will get married in my pj's before i look like that on my wedding day or have the dress taken out. must work out.


so what did i do instead tonight? i came home and weighed the options in my head. option a) do entire workout routine. feel really great about self. or option b) sit on sofa and eat pasta then cookie dough. nap. watch sex and the city.


i chose option b.


go me!


hopefully tomorrow will be better. today was kind of icky. work was - eh. i can't put my finger on exactly what it is - but sometimes i feel like i annoy the shit out of people. and today it didn't really bother me but it kinda did at the same time. bleh. i'm not going to worry about it. i'm better than that job anyhow! so there. hmph.


okay. this blog is going nowhere. i'm going to attempt sleep. wierd how during the week all you want is sleep. then friday shows up and i stay up late. not becuase i have big plans. an exciting life. but becuase i feel like i have to. well...not have to.


dear god. do people read this blog? such dribble. going to bed now. goodnight.

43. [[:whimper:]]

normally i love thunderstorms - especially when they occur at night and you get to snuggle up in bed and listen to them. tonight should be one of those nights....


unfortunately i decided it would be a good idea to watch the 'sixth sense' when i saw it while flipping channels. that movie scared the shit out of me the first time i saw it (almost 10 years ago - can you believe that?) and still does. the lady in the bathrobe....yeeeee.....


add to that combo the fact that chris is on call tonight and had to leave just as we were getting into bed and it makes for one unable-to-sleep-scared-she'll-see-a-ghost girl.




UPDATE: 4am! that is when chris finally got home last night. 5 straight hours of fire alarms. oy.

25. Pretty Please

can i please go back to bed??

24. Crack

chris and i are on crack. well, mainly me. we're going to the midnight premiere of the X-Files movie.

when we first saw the trailer on tv chris was super excited - i had no idea he was x-files fan. i myself never got into it while the show was on - i didn't consider myself to be a fan of the whole sci-fi thing. then one christmas (or new years - i can't remember) day my mom and i got caught up in an x-files marathon and i fell in love with it. (i also now love sci-fi) so i was pretty excited about the movie as well....

chris has never been to a midnight premiere. i've done a few (mainly harry potter ones) and loved them. they're just fun - especially when they're of the cultish variety. so i kinda talked him into doing this and now i'm thinking i must have been on crack becuase it's 10 to 10 and i'm ready for bed. so sleepy!

ah well. tomorrow is friday - just have to make it through the work day and then it's sleep central!

11. I Can't Sleep....

i have a week day off. i long for these days - when i can sleep in. instead i find myself up at 6am...and having nightmares about my wedding dress!


i have that pit of regret feeling in my stomach. not about buying the dress (so calm down mom - cause i can see the look of panic on your face from here!). i love my dress. the only thing i regret is not trying on more. i would have still bought the same dress but it's just that i was really getting into the whole fun of it all and i just wish i had tried on more - especially while my mom was down. i mean - you only get to do this once in your life....


it'll pass. it comes and goes. i just wish it would pass now so i could fall back asleep!