127. The Day Before....

friday the 8th of may 2009......


the day before the wedding. rehearsal day. an exciting day. a lot more friends and family were arriving. there was a lot to get done. and what would the day before the wedding be without the bride having a minor panic attack?


first thing that morning i had a doctor's appointment. i specifically made it in duluth becuase none of the doctor's back in the cities seemed to be listening to me in regards to my headaches. the last one i had talked to gave me a pain med that was the equivalent of two ibprofin when i told her that i had been taking up to four of these at a time with no results. it was like talking to a brick wall. i just wanted a pain med that worked. one that i didn't have to take before i had the pain (i'm not psychic) and on that didn't require me to lay down for hours and hours. i just wanted a pain med that took away my pain. i was terrified that i was going to get a headache on my wedding or on the honeymoon. luckily my old doctor listened to me. he gave me two different kinds of meds along with his phone number in case i needed him at all over the weekend. i was so thankful!


chris picked me up afterwards so we could run some errands. it was then that i had my minor panic attack. just started crying for no reason. poor chris was at a loss as to what to do and i was of no help as i didn't even know why i was crying. the more i tried to explain the more confusing it got. a mess in short. by the time we got to the mall i was in no shape to actually go in and make my purchase. luckily i have the best (then fiance now husband) in the world. he marched right into Victoria Secrets and asked them for exactly what i'd requested - granny panties that wouldn't ride up my butt'. evidently the sales staff thought he was pretty cute :) seriously though - do i have a great guy or what?


after that we made our way home. my sister, her husband and little boys had arrived by this time so we watched them try on a few different suits for the wedding - so cute! i swear she has the cutest little boys i've ever seen! chris went and got lunch. i showered. his mom arrived. we ate. then we headed down to meet my mom and grandma at greysolon to start setting up for the wedding!

(did i mention that i have the greatest guy in the world? while i was running about all frazzled he remembered to take pictures of everything! i'm so thankful he did - i would have been super bummed at having forgot.)

when we arrived the tables were already set thanks to the great staff that works there. the room looked fantastic! i was so pleased! and really happy that i'd picked gold to go along with the brown and ivory for the color scheme and not pink as it just fit the room perfectly! it was gorgeous! i just walked around admiring everything - in awe that chris and i would be getting married there at that time the very next day!

the room itself has this beautiful wooden bar - i love it! my mom and chris's mom were there getting the centerpieces ready. since my mom never drinks it was funny to see her at the bar working it like she knew her way around. the centerpieces were borrowed from my matron of honor - carrie - who'd used them at her own wedding. fitting that'd we'd be using them since that's where chris and i met :) my mom picked out the bead work and candles that went into the vases - it was perfect! she did a fantastic job!

she also made the wise decision to get little boxes for the candy table - something i hadn't even thought of. grandma was busy getting those all set up for us. our mom's were also responsible for putting together a quiz (3 different versions) about chirs and i. mom printed them out on ivory parchment paper and tied them with brown ribbons - one for every guest. along with an answer sheet for each table. it was super cute!

did i mention how beautiful the location was? i don't think i mentioned that the site itself used to be the grand hotel in duluth. it's now mainly apartments for seniors but there is still a ballroom and the moorish room which is where we were to be. the actual wedding took place in the lobby area shown above. it was perfect. as you walked in the guests were seated around the fountain and the actual ceremony took place on the steps leading up to the moorish room. i know i'm probably biased but it was just perfect :)

the actual rehearsal was set to begin at 4pm. i think it really started sometime after that as the person in charge of showing us where we were supposed to actually walk down (there was no clear traditional aisle) was running a bit late. we were also having problems with the dj but that's a different story and one that i don't really want to dwell on since it takes away from all the good that happened :) (what's this - michelle is actually making an attempt at being positive and not jumping on the chance to complain....hmmm....). anyhow. rabbi amy (shown above with my mom) showed up right on que and was fantastic. she was able to take charge and get everyone in their proper places. she also helped us to figure out where the aisle would be and from there the rehearsal began!

we got everyone lined up on the upper level and tried to get it timed right to come down the stairs and into position. this was no easy task with two four year old ring bearers, a five year old flower girl and a two year old flower boy. in reality it wasn't that hard - just amusing. the flower boy threw his basket over the balcony :) the dj did not have the song we wanted to walk down the aisle to (argh!) so instead we rehearsed to ABBA's 'Dancing Queen' - with everyone dancing down the stairs it went pretty quickly - not the slow processional we'd hoped for but it was fun :) and did i mention hot? dear god -the place was like a boiler room! luckily we found out that the moorish room would be air conditioned the day of the wedding - otherwise i think people would have started to pass out....

the rehearsal was great. everyone was so easy going and willing to do anything to help. chris and i really blessed to have such fantastic friends and family! since we live far apart from most of our friends it was so great having them all in the same room and helping us out. i don't know if we'll ever be able to thank them enough!

oh - after the rehearsal itself aj (the lady in charge) showed up and took us to the bridal suite where the bridal party was going to be getting ready the next day. it was perfect! tables and mirrors for everyone to use. beautiful big windows full of natural lighting. a really nice dressing mirror that mark (kari's boyfriend) was kind enough to pose in front of for us :)

after all was said and done we headed down to the blackwater lounge (located right off the lobby inside greysolon) and had a much needed drink :) again - it was great to have all of our friends gathered around a big table getting to know one another :) i had a june in january or a january in june or something like that - can't remember - martini. it was super yummy! and it bubbled so it was fun to boot (they put a little pellet of dry ice into the bottom of the glass). in face it was so good and made me feel so good that i put don in charge of bringing in some vodka and pinapple juice the next day in case i needed it before the wedding :)

after a quick drink and stop at home for a change of clothes we headed up to hartley nature center for the grooms dinner. in order to try and save some money we went with something pretty low-key. subway, chips and soda. nice. comfortable. it was fun. everyone got a chance to relax and chatter.

we were also able to give out the gifts we had bought for the wedding party here. well...chris was able to give out his gifts to the groomsmen. i on the other hand - being so organized - did not have mine on hand and ended up passing them out as we were getting ready the next day. i really liked the gifts chris picked out though. personalized cufflinks for everyone. don got some great KISS ones. bryan had ski ones. nathan had some bike ones and dave had some airplane control panel ones. (if i haven't mentioned it before - etsy is a fantastic site to get customized orders!) i liked them so much that i ordered scrabble ones for my dad. one 'L' and one 'R' :)

uhhh..yeah....i did mention that it was pretty low-key, right? :) (nice chris!)

after dinner i made the very wise decision to go out and have some more drinks at blackwaters. my intent was to just have one. then i was going to go home. take advantage of my parents lovely bathtub and have a soak in those wonderful smelling chai tea bath leaves that vija got me for my bachelorette gift. then i was going to get a good nights sleep.......yeah......

instead i stayed out till 12:30. i had three martini's and some chocolate fondue. while i had a great time i would end up regretting my decision later on. i had to include the picture above. it's chris's brother nathan and below is nathan and his wife mandy (who just happen to make up a fantastic band that you should check out here). nathan never really ever drinks and it turns out that this was the first alcholic beverage he'd ever ordered - in honor of our wedding! evidently we were all trying to attain a hangover for the big day..... :)

halfway through the evening the guys in the group decided to head off and play pool. it worked out perfectly becuase right then my sister and her husband showed up and our little table area was more than packed! and like i said - we stayed there till around 12:30 then headed back home. i know that the bride and groom are traditionally not supposed to stay in the same place the night before but since we didn't have a lot of options chris ended up sleeping on the couch in the basement of my parents house and i stayed on the third floor. for reasons that i'll mention later i was incredibly grateful that he was so close.....

and with that this massively long post has come to an end!

121. Single Digits

we're down to the single digits. 9 days.

so we're making our own favors for the wedding. mix cd's. i bought a variety of cute cd packaging kits. they look great. one problem. one of the songs had been bought from itunes. in this instance itunes will only let you burn 7 copies. so i had to get that song from another source - one that chris had signed up for. download the song ('all i want is you' by barry louis palisar/juno soundtrack). great. burnt about 100 cd's.

the other night chris and i were working on something and listening to the playlist and that song came on. guess we should have listened to the whole song. at the end the singer (at least i think it's him) comes on in some twangy (more twangy than his normal voice) and starts singing another version of the song. one that includes one person being the cow and the other person being the udders. uhhhhh....yeah.....

if you're coming to the wedding. i apologize. i can't fix it. well i could but i don't have the funds to buy more cds and more packaging kits - especially now that over 100 have been made. hopefully people will just laugh. hopefully they won't think there is something wrong with chris and i.....

119. Most is Good

today is tuesday

i'm so smart, right?

last night i got home and decided it was time to do a weigh-in along with measurements. the last time i did this was on february 19th. i lost a total of 4.8 pounds (although i prefer the total of 6 that the Wii fit gave me...). i also lost a total of 7.5 inches. one of those inches was from my lower arm and another half inch from my upper arm! i was shocked! granted i've been working my arms like crazy but even when i lost all that weight a few years ago i didn't lose a thing from the arms. so - i was very happy. i just wish i could actually see the difference......

after writing that post yesterday and getting carrie's response i did up a master list last night. and it turns out it wasn't as bad as i thought it was. i'm only in need of 4 addresses! i had all of the other ones - on bits of paper - luckily they were all in one place. so i unnecessarily freaked out. it happens, right?

found out i have to tweak the seating chart. had a few add-ons. shoudln't be a problem. and like i said - no one is going to be chained to their chairs. i don't think i sat any mortal enemies next to one another so there should be no battles.

still working on the groomsmans gifts. but they should be done and in the mail tomorrow. again - hopefully.

everything is set for the ceremony. vows are done. wine ceremony supplies are ready to go. my sister is doing a reading. my brother-in-law is going to be singing. the only problem is we haven't been able to touch base with the officiate. but she's a good family friend and i know she's been busy lately - so i'm not worried. regardless - chris and i will be married when all is said and done.

and not that this has anything to do with anything but the wedding liscense for the county we live in is butt ugly. and now you have to have four witnesses! crazy. plus - i was always under the impression that we would sign our liscense but no - our names our just typed on there. we don't sign anything. that just seems stupid to me.....

i'm eating a banana right now.

oh - been getting some good music selections so thanks :) one i forgot about but am so glad it was brought to my attention is 'celebrate' by kool and the gang. i love that song :)

is it normal for brides who have otherwise been find and calm enter a brief freak-out phase. one that might involve tears and contemplation of why they just didn't elope like a sane person? i'm sure it is. that happened to me the other night. and the thing that set it off was so small - so meaningless. hmph. all is good now. :)

i'm rambling. so i'm going to just go ahead and stop. 11 DAYS!

118. Daze

i'm finding myself in a daze lately. a happy daze. a nervous daze. an excited daze. an anxious daze.....


this weekend we were supposed to go up to duluth. that did not happen and that's okay. i had a lot of things to get done and enjoyed being home to do them. i.....

burned more cd's for the favors - still about about 50 left to do

worked on the seating chart. kelly was right - that was hard! luckily i had my future sister and brother in law over (along with chris) to help me out. we figured it out. i think. i hope. i'm not going to worry about it anymore. it's not like people are going to be chained to those chairs - they just have to eat in them. hopefully no one has any problems with my arrangements. i hope. ugh. stop worrying!

was going to work on place cards. ended up not doing so. well sort of. they are supposed to be color coordinated according to what dinner people chose (roasted chicken, tangerine glazed chicken or mushroom pasta) - i chose to do the colors of the wedding. brown, gold and ivory. pretty. but a) our printer is almost out of ink and we are poor and b) printing on brown would not work on our printer c) i don't have some people's names - just a Mr & Mrs John Smith or something of the sort d) i bought special pens to write them out myself but it didn't look as good as i thought it would...

where am i going with this? i've decided to just post my brother at the sign in table and he'll have a guest list with names, table numbers and food choice. people will tell him their names - he will tell them their table number and then hand them the appropiate colored tent card to place at the table so the waiter knows what they are eating. make sense? tacky? i need your opinion!

that was it. oh. while carrie provided with me music selection the rest of you (if anyone else actually reads my blog...) did not give me any music help! i've upped the decades to include the 80's - who doesn't love dancing to great 80's music? send your suggestions!

oh. got my garter in the mail :) very cute.

that is all for now. oh. except for this. i'm frustrated. i have a crap of a master guest list. it doesn't include addresses. i wish to god i had made this when my mom and i were doing all the invites. i had to text people for addresses. e-mail them. and now i don't have those things anymore. perhaps i'll have to have david make everyone include their address in the guest book - yes! brilliant! i was dreading figuring out the thank-you's.....

okay. that is all. for now. for real.

115. No Hokey Pokey Please!

THE WEDDING IS 17 DAYS AWAY!


i need help with the music selection.....


we've picked out the songs we're walking down the aisle to and such. we've also picked out the music to play for the cocktail hour. and i've also picked out most of the music for the reception but i just want some ideas.....

i've picked a lot of 50's and 60's. i love love love that music and felt it was something that everyone would enjoy - not something obscure like all bjork music or something. i also included some songs from ABBA. a B52's song. some 'girls just wanna have fun'. some madonna. i even threw in a NKOTB song for me and kelly :) and possibly an N'SYNC song (it's 'bye bye bye' and yes - there is a reason for it)

i like all kinds of music but the 50's and 60's era is my favorite so i've just been kinda stuck there. so if anyone has any suggestions on fun dance songs - let me know! if you also have any suggestions from the 50's and 60's era - let me know them too! :)

we do have a dj and i do trust him but music is huge for me and i just want to make sure a bunch of crap isn't played. i requested no chicken dance or hokey pokey. i also requested no prince. not that i don't like the man but i couldn't take the chance 'pussy control' might get played...(shudder)...i can't stand that song.....

so...HELP!


what else?

we got our marriage liscense! yay! although i have to admit i'm more than irked. it cost $110. that didn't bother me so much as the fact that if we had taken some religious pre-marriage class we would have got $70 knocked off that $110! that's bull. you can get married in a court house with no mention of god and it's a marriage. a legal contract. so why does having a blessing from god constitute some massive discount. what a load of crap.

i still feel like i have a lot to get done. i have to finish making the favors. i have to create the seating chart. i have to get the place cards written out. and chris and i set a goal to lose 6 pounds each by the wedding. so we've got 17 days!

i'm hungry - is it lunchtime yet?

102. Brad Pitt

some more things....


1. i had a strange dream with brad pitt in it last night. no clue why. but he had only 3 children. they were all wearing white pants and long sleeve shirts with these super light aqua marine tunic type things over them. they were also all extremely pale with white blonde hair. we were staying at his moms house. evidently i'd hung out there with him before. the nanny was there. i remember being scared to meet angelina. wierd......

2. the sun was out for a tiny bit this morning. i hope it comes back. if i have to take another grey day i'll fall asleep at my desk. that and it's friday - the afternoon that d-r-a-g-s by. is it 4:30 yet?

3. i realized that my car payment does not have to come out of this paycheck. that means i can afford to buy the bouquet i ordered from etsy. along with the book i had specially ordered. i can also order the candy and cd packaging kits for the wedding!

4. i'm kinda crabby. or just have no patience. i attribute it to the weather, the fact that my eating and exercise schedule is so out of whack and the fact that i'm having yet another cluster headache but have no meds left to treat it :(

5. the cake topper did not arrive last night. hopefully it arrives tonight - i'm excited to see it!

6. i still cannot figure out who sent the mystery RSVP. although i just remembered one person i hadn't thought of before - it has to be her!

7. writing thank you notes is hard. i feel like i'm not fully conveying how thankful i really am.

8. i still need to post about the shower/bachelorette. i will do that this weekend. promise.


guess that's all for now.

101. Chick-A-Boom!

i have that song stuck in my head and have no idea why.....


some things.....


a) our wedding is in 44 days. 44 DAYS!

b) it was two years ago today that i moved down to the twin cities. that day saw a record temp - 81! today it was 28 when i got to work.

c) it's been continually grey since sunday. grey wet cold slop. it makes me want to sleep/eat all the time.

d) i need to exercise. eat better. the chipotle we had for dinner last night does not factor into that.

e) the cake topper i ordered should be arriving today or tomorrow!

f) i got an RSVP with no name. but these people would like to eat tangerine glazed chicken.


more later. birthday cards await!

94. Tic-Tac

i've become obsessed with orange tic-tacs. a container a day. it satisfies my sweet tooth without all the crap. now if only someone would leave me an entire mailbox full alla juno.....

2 hours 20 minutes till i get to go home.

chris and i are going to run over to the wedding shoppe and finalize the tux order tonight. very happy about that. i think it might cost a bit more than other places but they had the exact colors i wanted. their customer service was way better! the place we checked out in duluth the girl looked like she was bored beyond belief and was rather rude in my opinion.

hmm.

that's all i got right now.

HAPPY ST. PATRICK'S DAY!

93. 9:54 a.m.

i'm more awake now. not enough to think of a more creative title though....


how about an update?


- i had a dress fitting appointment this past saturday. you might remember me mentioning that last time i tried on the dress i had about six boobs. that is gone. it fits! i need to tone up my arms a bit more and could probably stand to lose an inch around my middle but that shouldn't be a problem at all. very happy :)
- chris and i looked at more tux's and i think i've finally made up my mind. :)
- i've ordered my bouquet. not going to say anything yet other than it's not flowers. and that i'm very excited about it.
- i found a guestbook on etsy that's super cute and was only $10 :)
- the invitations were mailed - i mentioned that. when we came back from duluth this weekend we already had 3 RSVP's! :)


hmmm.....


guess that's all i can manage right now. i think my spurt of being semi-awake is fading and i'm now starting to daydream about a nap after work. ah...sleep... :)

90. Etsy

i love etsy.

that's all.

88. With This Ring....

i've had many emotions in regards to the wedding. disbelief. stress. excitement. and now....


nervousness...


so far all of my focus has been on the reception and honeymoon. sure - i've thought about the ceremony but now i'm really thinking about the ceremony. about vows. i looked online at some examples and they all seem a bit - processed. but i don't think i'd be good at (nor does chris want to) writing our own.


i just want the ceremony to be short and sweet. meaningful but not a lot of pagentry.


i'm also having nervous/guilt twitches about involving others in the wedding. people have asked to help me on numerous occasions but i either don't know what i need help with or feel guilty asking for/accepting it. strange? i don't know.


i just have a sloshy yuck ball in the pit of my tummy right now....


[whimper....]

87. Signed. Sealed. Delivered.

that's right. the wedding invitations are going to be mailed today! *


we were up until midnight. things would have gone much quicker had i actually put together a formal list of addresses. instead i was going off tiny bits of scrap paper. a lot of texts were sent and received and a lot of calls were made. but....it's all done. well...i still have about 9 more labels to print off tonight.....


hopefully chris can find a post office that is willing to hand cancel our invites. i'm worried that cramming them into the a machine will tear them up. when my mom asked at our local post office while she was buying stamps the guy was a bit of a dick and said they didn't have time due to cutbacks. excuse me? the post office is in trouble because people don't use it as much anymore and you're going to be rude to someone who is buying 240 stamps from you and wanting to mail 120 invites? enjoy delivering your penny savers dink.....


wow. we're actually getting married. not that i haven't realized this before but it's sinking in more...crazy....




*thanks to my mom and chris who spent they day (while i was at work) getting stamps and adhering them to the invites and also printing off reception cards and sticking them in the envelopes. thank you thank you thank you!

82. Sprinkles

i have an obsession with bryer's natural vanilla ice-cream (no other vanilla will do. i'm an ice-cream snot) and rainbow sprinkles. love them. a lot.


despite the fact that i feel like a whale right now. maybe they didn't make me bloated but it was the last thing i ate.


aren'cha glad i share everything with you?


and since i'm sharing....


i have so much left to do! or at least it feels that way.....
-create playlist for the reception
-find shoes for bridesmaids
-ummm....


brain is drawing a blank. perhaps the bloating went from stomach to head? who knows. bedtime.

80. Dark Brown Costs Extra....

so i mentioned last night that i ordered our cake topper.


while it was a bit more than i originally thought i was pleased. it's more customized than most and will make a nice keepsake.


i looked at the webiste again this morning just becuase i wanted to see the topper again. admire it. then i noticed that it said 'strapless gown variation not available on this model' - that's fine. i'll take the version wtih strapes but they let me click on the strapless option and then charged me for it. they also charged me to change the color of chris's helmet when i noticed this morning that that should be free. hmph. so i sent an e-mail to them explaining that i would like those extra charges removed. hopefully they get back to me soon!


i also thought it was a bit odd that my hair color (dark brown) cost extra. if i had blonde, light brown, red or black it was free. but for the groom to have dark hair was free. what?


ah well. hopefully this all gets resolved. i really like this topper despite the hassle.

UPDATE: the company e-mailed me back this afternoon and got everything straightened out. if i hadn't been so blind i would have seen the mistakes i made when ordering - oops! but the topper should be here by the end of march. yay!

79. 24

stupid jack bauer. doesn't he know i have things to do?

as much as this show irritates me (seriously - how many days like this can one person have?) i find myself glued to the t.v. whenever it's on (i blame chris who just had to watch). tonight was a 2 hour special. 2 hours of my evening...gone....

granted. i should have been walking on the treadmill while watching (i moved it into the living room for that very purpose). instead i ate dinner and possibly a few girl scout cookies......

but.

i did manage to notify my bridesmaids that their dresses arrived today!!

i ordered my wedding shoes - super excited about them btw....

i ordered our cake topper. it's a fireman carrying the bride :)

i contacted our dj and apologized for not having contacted him earlier - oops!

got our contract in with the hotel so people can start making their reservations (sorry reid - i'm slow)

just as i was feeling good about things i got an e-mail from our contact person at the wedding/reception site and she gave me a list of things that need to be specified in regards to the big day. oy!

i've also come to the hard conclusion tonight that i need to cut back my guest list a bit. granted i've printed out enough invitations for all the guests currently on our list but at some point i have to stop feeling guilty about not inviting friends from highschool that i've seen perhaps five times since then and none in the past two years. i doubt they'll care (if it all) as much as i've been allowing myself to think so......ya know?

so there ya go. anyone know how i can make some fast cash?

76. 80

80.


80 days.


making progress. my mom came down last night and my future sister-in-law mandy came over to help with the wedding invitations. together we printed out 120 invitations. tied 120 ribbons. printed out 120 response cards. a successful evening.


now i just have to find shoes for the bridesmaid dresses. figure out what i want to do with my hair. create a playlist for the dj. decide if we're going to do a candy table and if so then order candy. determine whether or not we could afford to do london for a few days instead of our dream greek honeymoon. pick out outfits for the ring bearers. get the suits in order for the guys. buy stamps.


hmm. when i type it all out it seems like a lot more than when it was just in my mind floating about.


how about we list the things i have done and perhaps that list will be longer :)


i've booked and paid for the venue. found someone to marry us. bought a dress. taken care of the bridesmaids dresses. decided on the menu and alcohol selection. chosen what music to be played during the ceremony and for our first dance. bought and printed invitations. registered for gifts. finalized the guest list. ummm...i know there is more....


whatever. it'll get done and if not then we'll still be married at the end of the day which is what counts, right?

75. Target

tonight i've decided will be dedicated to wedding related doings.


i purchased our invitations at michaels.


i edited and organized our registries with williams & sonoma and macy's. easy peasy.


then i went to edit our target registry. hmph. let me start at the beginning.....


we registered at target last month. we used the little computer station to get started and everything was going fine until we tried to print out our stuff - nothing came out. we waited. still nothing. we asked a store associate for help and she told us to try another station and start from scratch. we did this only to have it tell us that an account had already been created using that information. so we tried to look up our information and it said our account did not exist. wtf? we finally got it taken care of. the associated handed us the scan gun and told us not to register for any items on clearance as they would not be in stock closer to the wedding.


everything in target was on clearance!


i thought by now it would be better but i can't even get that far. i can't click on items we've already registered for to jog my memory. and when i go to add new items it only lets you do it by category. and for example - i went to fitness/exercise - it only showed me about 20 items. but if you just go to plain old target website and click on the same category you get pages upon pages of items to buy! wtf?


so. i guess i'm saying that if you're coming to the wedding and have a macy's or williams and sonoma (we registered for small things there not fancy schmancy stuff) please shop at those. i'm not happy with target right now. at all. hmph.


on to something more fun....

69. Pajama Party

reasons to have a theme wedding. more specifically - a pajama party themed wedding.

1. let's face it. you're not going to lose that weight before the wedding. you will end up having six boobs in your dress unless a miracle occurs and they are able to 'let the dress out' enough to fit your fat self.

2. wearing pajamas for your wedding would be way more comfortable. if it were just you it might be awkward - that's why you theme the whole wedding around your comfort.

3. how were you supposed to know that the fucking chinese new year would affect when your dresses would be made. you knew you were supposed to order them soon but 4 days from now! who has the time for that? and your bridesmaids probably won't be happy about shelling out the dough on such short notice. instead of becoming bridezilla you've become the un-bride. the bride-to-be who does notta in preparation for her big day.

4. you've always wanted to throw a theme party. mainly a halloween costume party but may is hardly the time for that. well...unless you wanted to be completely wacky...and i suppose theming your wedding after a pj party is not entirely normal. even google had not results when you typed it in.

5. your mom thinks it's a cool idea. just so long as you wear that dress she bought you for at least the ceremony. (must buy black veil to cover up back fat)

seriously though folks. i'm lost here. i know i'm not great with planning. hell - if i were then i'd be thin and healthy and have a more fulfilling job. but instead i'm fat and sit on my ass all day long. so this wedding planning business isn't going to well.

a theme wedding is sounding so much easier right now. maybe not a pj party. any ideas?

65. What have I been doing?

good question. wish i had an answer.


oh wait. i do. getting fat. the kind of fat where you can feel your belly jiggle when you shouldn't feel your belly jiggle. the kind of fat that makes you wish sweatpants were acceptable attire for the work place. the kind of fat that despite making me feel like complete and utter shit anchors me to my couch.


would someone like to feed me? as in the way your pets get fed. only a certain amount in the morning and a certain amount in the evening. basic nutrients - nothing fancy. no ability to snack. i'd also like someone to volunteer as a drill sergeant. make me work out. make me. please.


at the rate i'm going my wedding dress is going to be displayed on a mannequin as it will impossible for me to fit into without looking like a whale. that is if chris still feels like marrying someone who is a foot shorter but is going to weigh more than him soon.


depressing.


on to other things......


i knocked a stone out of my engagement ring! luckily i was able to find it - such a tiny stone buried in our shaggy bathroom rug! it should be back on my finger again by friday.


i've been getting massively insane headaches that make me want to chop off my head. i've also discovered that imatrex may as well be a sugar cube for the amount of relief it brings me.


humidifiers for adults are incredibly boring. beige. so i bought the one intended for kids - it's a red dragon :)


i bought the humidifier in hopes that it will relieve my eye problem. since friday my eyes have been so painfully dry that having them open fully hurts. eye drops make it worse as they burn my eyes and turn them red.


i could power a car i'm so fucking full of gas. sorry if that is too much information. but seriously. what is wrong with me? no major changes in diet - just full of gas. stress? it's embarrassing. and i just shared it with the world luckily only a few people read this.....


hmmm. perhaps bloated gassiness is related to such a high weight number. fingers crossed. gas easier to get rid of then fat. but i still must get rid of lots of fat. not to be thin but to be healthy.


i think i've figured out what i want to do for our wedding invitations. now if i could just remember to order the supplies!


speaking of the wedding. not that anyone has to bring a gift but...the plates we registered for (at macy's are more than 50% off right now!)


tomorrow chris turns 36! he's in duluth right now which gave me plenty of time to make his cake and wrap his gifts :) (hmmmm....licking the cake batter bowl was probably not good way to lose weight)


chris and i are merging. we are now on the same health insurance. car insurance. renters insurance. we also decided to drop our cable. realized we were becoming mindless drones and also that cable was a major distraction from other things we should be doing - uhhh...like...working out for instance.


we signed up for netflix. probably not going to be good in the distraction area. ah well. tomorrow we should be getting a documentary about the south pole. sex and the city season one and the sopranos season one (i've seen all be the last season and so help me god if anyone ruins it for me.....)


despite vowing to make christmas gifts this year we've instead bought a lot. guess i'll sell those 150 coasters i made......


i'm currently in the process of making five different knitted/crocheted projects. hopefully they get done soon.


it's now 10:53 and i really should be going to bed if i have any hope of getting my larded self out of bed in the morning and on the treadmill before work! i'm hoping my little dragon helps my eye problem and therefore allows a better nights sleep!

61. You're Invited!

i need your help!


i am now desperately seeking inviation ideas - preferably in a color scheme of brown, ivory and gold (light not brassy). i would also like them to be on recycled paper if possible. oh - and to not have them cost me an arm and a leg.


any help you can give me would be much appreciated! thanks :)