been rather absent from here lately - despite the fact that i have some major things to write about and a thousand and one pictures to go along with them.....
i'm in the dumps. a number of reasons why. won't bore you with them.
trying to get myself out of said dumps but it's hard. i get one leg over the side and then fall back in. i'm beginning to think my eyes are going to be eternally puffy and red. that my headaches are never going to cease and that eventually what's left of my withering brain is just going to leak out my ear...
the bright side to all this garbage is chris. no matter what i'm crying about or hopeless about - he's there for me. he understands me - or at least tries really hard too (i hardly understand myself sometimes....). he's amazingly patient. no matter what is going on it's made a bit brighter just knowing that i have him as my best friend.
despite what i may think and feel sometimes - deep down i know i'm the luckiest girl around :)
Showing posts with label Headache. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Headache. Show all posts
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
124. WOW (again...)
We're Married!
(just you never mind the food stuck in my teeth...)
more updates coming soon. promise. just got back from london. been up for almost 20 hours. why am i not sleepy you ask? a combo of nerve pills, nyquil and then the massive caffine pill of a headache med i took for..well...my headache. so far no relief from headache but a major 'deer in headlights' look on my face....sort of like the one above....
Friday, May 1, 2009
122. AGAIN!
i have another massive fucking headache. i want to rip the whole left side of my fucking head off.
i don't know what it is. i read symptoms for different headaches and it's not a migrane. it feels like a cluster headache but those are only suppsed to last about an hour - not 48!
i've taken 4 of my new headache meds so far. nothing. notta. great help those are.
i'm going to scream. i cannot stand this pain.
perhaps i should go into urgent care tomorrow. make them give something stronger. something that actually relieves pain. what a concept - a pain reliever that takes away your pain.....hmph....
why me?
i don't know what it is. i read symptoms for different headaches and it's not a migrane. it feels like a cluster headache but those are only suppsed to last about an hour - not 48!
i've taken 4 of my new headache meds so far. nothing. notta. great help those are.
i'm going to scream. i cannot stand this pain.
perhaps i should go into urgent care tomorrow. make them give something stronger. something that actually relieves pain. what a concept - a pain reliever that takes away your pain.....hmph....
why me?
Monday, April 13, 2009
112. Work Countdown Begins
i counted today. only 17 days left of work before the wedding and honeymoon. WAHOO!
in other news.....
the last time i posted i had a massive insanely painful headache. it lasted all thursday night. i was in so much pain i contemplated going into the er in hopes they could give me something. i refrained - too worried about the bill. i got one crap hour of sleep. the next morning i still felt like my head was on fire so i called into work and went to the doctor. they gave me a prescription for new headache pills and a shot in my hip to help with the pain i was in at that moment. then they left me to lay down in the dark for about 20 minutes while the medication did it's thing. it sort of worked. definitely reduced the pain but i still had a headache all weekend. hmph. luckily they've gotten much better this past week :)
hmmm....
turns out i don't feel like posting right now. i've got no attention span. maybe later :)
in other news.....
the last time i posted i had a massive insanely painful headache. it lasted all thursday night. i was in so much pain i contemplated going into the er in hopes they could give me something. i refrained - too worried about the bill. i got one crap hour of sleep. the next morning i still felt like my head was on fire so i called into work and went to the doctor. they gave me a prescription for new headache pills and a shot in my hip to help with the pain i was in at that moment. then they left me to lay down in the dark for about 20 minutes while the medication did it's thing. it sort of worked. definitely reduced the pain but i still had a headache all weekend. hmph. luckily they've gotten much better this past week :)
hmmm....
turns out i don't feel like posting right now. i've got no attention span. maybe later :)
Thursday, April 2, 2009
111. 18
hour 18.
headache still here.
headache is 100x worse than when it started at 4am this morning.
eyes are constantly watering.
it's moved from all over my head to just the left side.
i want to rip out the left side of my brain.
i want to be able to sleep.
i fucking hate these fucking headaches.
headache still here.
headache is 100x worse than when it started at 4am this morning.
eyes are constantly watering.
it's moved from all over my head to just the left side.
i want to rip out the left side of my brain.
i want to be able to sleep.
i fucking hate these fucking headaches.
110. 1.5
the headache is still here. STILL.
all i want to do is close my eyes. let them rest. (1.5 hours and counting...)
what a bummer. it's absolutely gorgeous outside and all i want (need) to do is sleep. why must headaches show up at the suckiest times?
i had one like this the day of my shower and bachelorette (i still need to blog about those!) and while i still had a lot of fun i was super bummed - i wasn't all there ya know?
on the upside i did schedule a doctors appointment for next thursday. a different doctor too. hopefully i can get some meds that work. i live in fear that i will have a headache like this the day of our wedding!
all i want to do is close my eyes. let them rest. (1.5 hours and counting...)
what a bummer. it's absolutely gorgeous outside and all i want (need) to do is sleep. why must headaches show up at the suckiest times?
i had one like this the day of my shower and bachelorette (i still need to blog about those!) and while i still had a lot of fun i was super bummed - i wasn't all there ya know?
on the upside i did schedule a doctors appointment for next thursday. a different doctor too. hopefully i can get some meds that work. i live in fear that i will have a headache like this the day of our wedding!
109. YaY Sun!
i woke up this morning to find my bedroom bright with sunshine! Hooray!!
unfortunately my enthusiam was a bit dampered by the fact that i'd woken up 3 hours earlier with my 6th headache since last Saturday. 6th!
i still have it.....
i'm hoping i can make a doctors appointment next week. if they tell me i can't have the time to do so...well....i don't know what i'll do....
yay sunshine........
unfortunately my enthusiam was a bit dampered by the fact that i'd woken up 3 hours earlier with my 6th headache since last Saturday. 6th!
i still have it.....
i'm hoping i can make a doctors appointment next week. if they tell me i can't have the time to do so...well....i don't know what i'll do....
yay sunshine........
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
108. Missing: Sun
my posts have had a rather negative tone to them lately....i apologize.
i blame the following.
weather. one wet cloudy day is fine. but days upon days upon days upon days is just too much! i can't handle it! it makes me grumpy and pissy and sad.....
the complete lack of anything to do at my job. they've had two years to develop my position and i do less work than when i started! i'd love to find a new one but the chances of doing that are pretty slim. in the meantime i can only pray that times speeds by more quickly why i'm here.
headaches. i am so fucking sick to god of cluster headaches. i wasn't even going to bring it up but i'm getting one - just in the few seconds it's taken me to type this post! that makes 4 in the past week! i need to go to the doctor and get pain pills that i can take without then having to take a nap. i loved that - the doctor gave me pills for migranes (despite the fact that i do not have migranes) and then said they only worked if i layed down. so when i get a headache at a quarter to 2 at work i'm supposed to do what?
i promise to make an attempt to be more positive. an attempt. the weather forcast is looking bleak so this streak might continue for a few more days....if it bugs you go here
i blame the following.
weather. one wet cloudy day is fine. but days upon days upon days upon days is just too much! i can't handle it! it makes me grumpy and pissy and sad.....
the complete lack of anything to do at my job. they've had two years to develop my position and i do less work than when i started! i'd love to find a new one but the chances of doing that are pretty slim. in the meantime i can only pray that times speeds by more quickly why i'm here.
headaches. i am so fucking sick to god of cluster headaches. i wasn't even going to bring it up but i'm getting one - just in the few seconds it's taken me to type this post! that makes 4 in the past week! i need to go to the doctor and get pain pills that i can take without then having to take a nap. i loved that - the doctor gave me pills for migranes (despite the fact that i do not have migranes) and then said they only worked if i layed down. so when i get a headache at a quarter to 2 at work i'm supposed to do what?
i promise to make an attempt to be more positive. an attempt. the weather forcast is looking bleak so this streak might continue for a few more days....if it bugs you go here
Monday, March 30, 2009
106. Not 4!
currently in the throes of trying not to get headache #4 of the week.
someone walked in to the building. someone who thought it'd be a fantastic idea to sit in a bathtub of perfume and soak.
i shit you not - she came in 30 minutes ago and the smell is still so strong i'm trying not to choke. i have to breathe through my mouth and i can taste it.
why do people find it necessary to do this?
has no one close to them (although considering their stench i doubt they have anyone close to them) not told them HOW STRONG their perfume is?
if i get yet another monster headache i am not going to be a happy camper......
someone walked in to the building. someone who thought it'd be a fantastic idea to sit in a bathtub of perfume and soak.
i shit you not - she came in 30 minutes ago and the smell is still so strong i'm trying not to choke. i have to breathe through my mouth and i can taste it.
why do people find it necessary to do this?
has no one close to them (although considering their stench i doubt they have anyone close to them) not told them HOW STRONG their perfume is?
if i get yet another monster headache i am not going to be a happy camper......
104. Ding Dong
ding dong the guard is gone!
which old guard?
the snotty guard.
ding dong the snotty guard is gone!
not only that but my headache seems to be lifting (hope i didn't jinx it by mentioning it...)
monday is looking a bit brighter :)
which old guard?
the snotty guard.
ding dong the snotty guard is gone!
not only that but my headache seems to be lifting (hope i didn't jinx it by mentioning it...)
monday is looking a bit brighter :)
103. Frump
monday mornings are not my friend.
with them comes the return of work. they also mean that the frump dump guard is on duty.
swear to god - this guard has been sick since he started about 3 months ago. he sits directly behind me. so not only do i get the lovely odor of feet, cig smoke and grease (it was so bad one day i had to make him move to the donor wating room) but he constantly is sniffling and snotting - the kind you can feel go down the back of your own throat. gag. and he coughs. but not a normal cough. more like a 'hack hack hack hack' - he sounds like a cat with a nasty hairball. horrid. and he's a slob. i came in one day to to find his uniform shirts spread out all over the floor, newspaper everywhere - food everywhere. disgusting!
sorry. i just had to get it off my chest. i feel like if i hear him honk, snot or hack one more time i'm going to turn around and smack him over the head (after i get a rubber glove becuase i don't think he's washed his hair since he started working here either...). he's just a big fucking frumpy douche.
what happened to natural selection?
only 34 minutes of his shift left - thank goodness.....
another fun thing - i'm currently having my THIRD cluster heacache in a week. perhaps that's making me exceptionally crabby this morning.........
with them comes the return of work. they also mean that the frump dump guard is on duty.
swear to god - this guard has been sick since he started about 3 months ago. he sits directly behind me. so not only do i get the lovely odor of feet, cig smoke and grease (it was so bad one day i had to make him move to the donor wating room) but he constantly is sniffling and snotting - the kind you can feel go down the back of your own throat. gag. and he coughs. but not a normal cough. more like a 'hack hack hack hack' - he sounds like a cat with a nasty hairball. horrid. and he's a slob. i came in one day to to find his uniform shirts spread out all over the floor, newspaper everywhere - food everywhere. disgusting!
sorry. i just had to get it off my chest. i feel like if i hear him honk, snot or hack one more time i'm going to turn around and smack him over the head (after i get a rubber glove becuase i don't think he's washed his hair since he started working here either...). he's just a big fucking frumpy douche.
what happened to natural selection?
only 34 minutes of his shift left - thank goodness.....
another fun thing - i'm currently having my THIRD cluster heacache in a week. perhaps that's making me exceptionally crabby this morning.........
Friday, March 27, 2009
102. Brad Pitt
some more things....
1. i had a strange dream with brad pitt in it last night. no clue why. but he had only 3 children. they were all wearing white pants and long sleeve shirts with these super light aqua marine tunic type things over them. they were also all extremely pale with white blonde hair. we were staying at his moms house. evidently i'd hung out there with him before. the nanny was there. i remember being scared to meet angelina. wierd......
2. the sun was out for a tiny bit this morning. i hope it comes back. if i have to take another grey day i'll fall asleep at my desk. that and it's friday - the afternoon that d-r-a-g-s by. is it 4:30 yet?
3. i realized that my car payment does not have to come out of this paycheck. that means i can afford to buy the bouquet i ordered from etsy. along with the book i had specially ordered. i can also order the candy and cd packaging kits for the wedding!
4. i'm kinda crabby. or just have no patience. i attribute it to the weather, the fact that my eating and exercise schedule is so out of whack and the fact that i'm having yet another cluster headache but have no meds left to treat it :(
5. the cake topper did not arrive last night. hopefully it arrives tonight - i'm excited to see it!
6. i still cannot figure out who sent the mystery RSVP. although i just remembered one person i hadn't thought of before - it has to be her!
7. writing thank you notes is hard. i feel like i'm not fully conveying how thankful i really am.
8. i still need to post about the shower/bachelorette. i will do that this weekend. promise.
guess that's all for now.
1. i had a strange dream with brad pitt in it last night. no clue why. but he had only 3 children. they were all wearing white pants and long sleeve shirts with these super light aqua marine tunic type things over them. they were also all extremely pale with white blonde hair. we were staying at his moms house. evidently i'd hung out there with him before. the nanny was there. i remember being scared to meet angelina. wierd......
2. the sun was out for a tiny bit this morning. i hope it comes back. if i have to take another grey day i'll fall asleep at my desk. that and it's friday - the afternoon that d-r-a-g-s by. is it 4:30 yet?
3. i realized that my car payment does not have to come out of this paycheck. that means i can afford to buy the bouquet i ordered from etsy. along with the book i had specially ordered. i can also order the candy and cd packaging kits for the wedding!
4. i'm kinda crabby. or just have no patience. i attribute it to the weather, the fact that my eating and exercise schedule is so out of whack and the fact that i'm having yet another cluster headache but have no meds left to treat it :(
5. the cake topper did not arrive last night. hopefully it arrives tonight - i'm excited to see it!
6. i still cannot figure out who sent the mystery RSVP. although i just remembered one person i hadn't thought of before - it has to be her!
7. writing thank you notes is hard. i feel like i'm not fully conveying how thankful i really am.
8. i still need to post about the shower/bachelorette. i will do that this weekend. promise.
guess that's all for now.
Monday, March 9, 2009
85. Double Agony
it is monday morning.
i have a headache the size of texas. i've had it for 10 hours so far.
on a brighter note. or scary one. today is march 9th. then comes april 9th. the comes may 9th - my wedding day! ah! :)
i have a headache the size of texas. i've had it for 10 hours so far.
on a brighter note. or scary one. today is march 9th. then comes april 9th. the comes may 9th - my wedding day! ah! :)
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