86. Just Shoot Me

call me a bitch but i think that people who consistantly watch those daytime judge shows are trash.


where is the mental stimulation? entertainment? is watching people who somehow snaked around natural selection spat about about their bullshit amusing? it's pathetic.


it's also extremely annoying when it's being blared on a t.v. directly across from me at my job. i can't escape it. i want to fucking poke out my eyeballs with my own fingers. and what makes it even worse is that the two people watching it are actually discussing episodes they've seen in the past and seem to have a vested interest in it.


trash.


and good god - the commercials are too fucking loud. turn the god damned t.v. down. or better yet - unplug it.


AHHHH!

79. 24

stupid jack bauer. doesn't he know i have things to do?

as much as this show irritates me (seriously - how many days like this can one person have?) i find myself glued to the t.v. whenever it's on (i blame chris who just had to watch). tonight was a 2 hour special. 2 hours of my evening...gone....

granted. i should have been walking on the treadmill while watching (i moved it into the living room for that very purpose). instead i ate dinner and possibly a few girl scout cookies......

but.

i did manage to notify my bridesmaids that their dresses arrived today!!

i ordered my wedding shoes - super excited about them btw....

i ordered our cake topper. it's a fireman carrying the bride :)

i contacted our dj and apologized for not having contacted him earlier - oops!

got our contract in with the hotel so people can start making their reservations (sorry reid - i'm slow)

just as i was feeling good about things i got an e-mail from our contact person at the wedding/reception site and she gave me a list of things that need to be specified in regards to the big day. oy!

i've also come to the hard conclusion tonight that i need to cut back my guest list a bit. granted i've printed out enough invitations for all the guests currently on our list but at some point i have to stop feeling guilty about not inviting friends from highschool that i've seen perhaps five times since then and none in the past two years. i doubt they'll care (if it all) as much as i've been allowing myself to think so......ya know?

so there ya go. anyone know how i can make some fast cash?

65. What have I been doing?

good question. wish i had an answer.


oh wait. i do. getting fat. the kind of fat where you can feel your belly jiggle when you shouldn't feel your belly jiggle. the kind of fat that makes you wish sweatpants were acceptable attire for the work place. the kind of fat that despite making me feel like complete and utter shit anchors me to my couch.


would someone like to feed me? as in the way your pets get fed. only a certain amount in the morning and a certain amount in the evening. basic nutrients - nothing fancy. no ability to snack. i'd also like someone to volunteer as a drill sergeant. make me work out. make me. please.


at the rate i'm going my wedding dress is going to be displayed on a mannequin as it will impossible for me to fit into without looking like a whale. that is if chris still feels like marrying someone who is a foot shorter but is going to weigh more than him soon.


depressing.


on to other things......


i knocked a stone out of my engagement ring! luckily i was able to find it - such a tiny stone buried in our shaggy bathroom rug! it should be back on my finger again by friday.


i've been getting massively insane headaches that make me want to chop off my head. i've also discovered that imatrex may as well be a sugar cube for the amount of relief it brings me.


humidifiers for adults are incredibly boring. beige. so i bought the one intended for kids - it's a red dragon :)


i bought the humidifier in hopes that it will relieve my eye problem. since friday my eyes have been so painfully dry that having them open fully hurts. eye drops make it worse as they burn my eyes and turn them red.


i could power a car i'm so fucking full of gas. sorry if that is too much information. but seriously. what is wrong with me? no major changes in diet - just full of gas. stress? it's embarrassing. and i just shared it with the world luckily only a few people read this.....


hmmm. perhaps bloated gassiness is related to such a high weight number. fingers crossed. gas easier to get rid of then fat. but i still must get rid of lots of fat. not to be thin but to be healthy.


i think i've figured out what i want to do for our wedding invitations. now if i could just remember to order the supplies!


speaking of the wedding. not that anyone has to bring a gift but...the plates we registered for (at macy's are more than 50% off right now!)


tomorrow chris turns 36! he's in duluth right now which gave me plenty of time to make his cake and wrap his gifts :) (hmmmm....licking the cake batter bowl was probably not good way to lose weight)


chris and i are merging. we are now on the same health insurance. car insurance. renters insurance. we also decided to drop our cable. realized we were becoming mindless drones and also that cable was a major distraction from other things we should be doing - uhhh...like...working out for instance.


we signed up for netflix. probably not going to be good in the distraction area. ah well. tomorrow we should be getting a documentary about the south pole. sex and the city season one and the sopranos season one (i've seen all be the last season and so help me god if anyone ruins it for me.....)


despite vowing to make christmas gifts this year we've instead bought a lot. guess i'll sell those 150 coasters i made......


i'm currently in the process of making five different knitted/crocheted projects. hopefully they get done soon.


it's now 10:53 and i really should be going to bed if i have any hope of getting my larded self out of bed in the morning and on the treadmill before work! i'm hoping my little dragon helps my eye problem and therefore allows a better nights sleep!

24. Crack

chris and i are on crack. well, mainly me. we're going to the midnight premiere of the X-Files movie.

when we first saw the trailer on tv chris was super excited - i had no idea he was x-files fan. i myself never got into it while the show was on - i didn't consider myself to be a fan of the whole sci-fi thing. then one christmas (or new years - i can't remember) day my mom and i got caught up in an x-files marathon and i fell in love with it. (i also now love sci-fi) so i was pretty excited about the movie as well....

chris has never been to a midnight premiere. i've done a few (mainly harry potter ones) and loved them. they're just fun - especially when they're of the cultish variety. so i kinda talked him into doing this and now i'm thinking i must have been on crack becuase it's 10 to 10 and i'm ready for bed. so sleepy!

ah well. tomorrow is friday - just have to make it through the work day and then it's sleep central!

21. One of These Topics Does Not Belong.....

so.....


i'm at work today with james (the talker). i think he's started to get the hint that i don't care to chat and so he's backed off. that and he's distracted from watching the television he carries in each and every day to watch such enlightening shows as Tyra, Dr. Phil and Oprah. let it be known that i cannot stand any of these shows - dr. phil especially.*


for the most part of i've learned to tune it out but today i walked into something i was not prepared for. i went to wash out a few of my lunch dishes and came back to hear Oprah's favorite gynecologist (do people actually put those in a favorite category?) on. the topic being discussed at that moment just happened to be finding your clitoris. i turned around and walked upstairs to chat with a co-worker for the next 20 minutes until my shift ended.


i hate to make fun of him because i really think he just doesn't get it. things that click in normal people completely bypass this man. i just couldn't stand to sit in that hot cramped little space with him smelling like sweat listening to someone like oprah talk about having an orgasm. not work appropiate. (i didn't bother saying anything to anyone as i'd probably be told to just step outside my comfort zone again....please....)




*people who go on that show (and indeed many who watch it) need a massive slap across the face and also to be sterilized from producing anymore of their kind. sorry - but it had to be said.

12. Wandering....

today is one of those saturdays where chris works and i'm left to my own devices.


i woke up a little before 10 and have fallen into my normal 'chris works saturday routine' of knitting and watching history channel shows about nazi's or the bible (do they ever have anything else on?).


i'm attempting to get myself in 'DO SOMETHING' mode! cleaning. exercising. i got myself into the room where the treadmill is but then i sat down at the computer and started blogging. i really just want to sit and knit more - i know i'm accomplishing something by doing that but it doesn't really feel like it.


alright - enough talking. i must get on the treadmill (aka return to the couch and craft)!




p.s. hope you all had a wonderful 4th of july! chris and i spent the day visiting kelly and christian and then we saw chris's best man bryan and his wife kari. we did not end up seeing any fireworks - chris was on squad and so we had to stick pretty close to home. instead we watched the sci-fi channel's 24 hour Twlight Zone marathon. i love that show.