18. Updates

so......where to begin....


my dad is doing alright. i ended up driving up on friday morning to be there during his angioplasty. everything went very smoothly. the doctor explained everything to us and let us know what needed to be done - mom seems pretty determined to make sure everything sticks so that makes me happy. i know for a lot of people it seems like a no-brainer....he has to work out and eat right! but how many of us actually get around to sticking to that change. we do it for a couple of weeks and then kinda fall off track. granted most of us don't have such extreme circumstances but often times having those makes the changes even harder. so - i'm just hoping they make a good go of it and becomes a lifestyle change. i want them both around for many many years to come!


on saturday evening chris and i atteneded the wedding of a fellow firefighter. everything was going dandy until the father daughter dance begun. i think it all hit me then - the severity of the whole situation. i was actually suprised at how calm i'd been considering what an emotional freak i am most of the time. as soon as they started dancing though i lost it. chris took me outside and we walked and talked until i felt better and was able to return. so yeah - it's tough.


wow. yeah......


in other news - i had an interview at the history center. i didn't tell anyone about it so as not to jinx it but well....didn't matter. when i arrived she let me know right away that they had posted the position wrong - it was not a full time permenant position but rather a part time temporary! ugh. whatever though - i still wanted it. ticketing, answering phones, and doing coat check for an upcoming exhibit. i got the call today - evidently i'm not qualified enough to check coats. double ugh.


but...i'm trying not to wallow in self pity. trying. i'm also going to try and stop freaking out about how much i hate my job. the things i complain about are petty and retarded. i inherited my dads temper and seeing how much his blood pressure affects his health and just everything has made me realize i need to calm down. i know this won't happen over night but i'll work on it. perhaps i'll learn yoga.


more later.......

17. An Explanation

so my blog yesterday may have left a few of you wondering just what the heck was going on....


i got a call from my mom yesterday after work informing me that my dad had suffered a heart attack and was being flown from the canadian resort he was visiting back to duluth. this of course set me into a panic - i won't divulge his medical history on the web but suffice it to say this was not his first (or second) heart attack.


luckily chris was home last night and so i had someone to pass the time with while awaiting another phone call from my mom. when she finally called she assured me that he was okay and they would performing a series of tests on him today (which they'll actually be doing tomorrow i found out).


in the meantime....we wait. i don't even really know what to say. i worry about my parents health constantly and getting a phone call like that.....


i'll keep you posted. no more cryptic blogs...i promise.