55. It's Official

this is me at 2:30pm this afternoon. 27 years old.


this is me at 4:45pm. the exact moment i turned 28.

this is where i was when i turned 28. sitting at a light waiting to turn so i could put gas in my car.

i tried to pump $10.22 but i wasn't fast enough with the lever.

all in all it's been a pretty great day thus far. chris was out of town last night but texted me this morning to let me know that he had hid my birthday card in his closet. it was so sweet it made me cry :) (i'm so lucky!) then he called me on my way to work to sing Happy Birthday :)


when i got to work i had 3 cards waiting for me. one from all the staff that the boss passes around. one from eric the guard ("the republican") that he had everyone sign. and one from sally - our volunteer greeter. she is super sweet - made the card herself and even threw in some nice change :)


i think chris's dad takes the cake today though. he and heather sent me a real card last night. this morning i got the following 2 ecards from him this morning - hillarious! in regards to the one with the word 'fuck' he said he though it would fit in nicely with the language i use in my blog. what? i swear?

my mom called later in the morning to wish me a happy birthday. i told her about all the cards i had recieved from chris's dad and she said he was trying to make her look bad since she hasn't even put my card in the mail :)

the envelope my card from "the republican" came in. very nice, eh?

so yeah. it's been a really good day so far. i'm always really touched that people remember my birthday since i so incredibly suck at remembering theirs! i try - really i try. and then fail. every time. perhaps i'll buy a wall calander this year. but then of course i'll forget to change the months on it. hmm.....

54. I'll be how old tomorrow??

yeah. my thoughts exactly.

53. My My....Indeed

that's right. that's neil young. and in keeping tune with my last post - if you don't know who this man is - you are a moron.

I GOT TO SEE NEIL YOUNG PERFOM LAST NIGHT - FOR FREE!

i will post more details later. i'll tell you this though - it fucking ROCKED!

52. Shut-Up Already. Please.

i am so sick to god of this damn election i could scream.


chris is watching the debate right now and they were seriously arguing about who has stood up against their own party more. if you disagree with your damn party so much (McCain) then you should have fucking run as an independent. seriously - the man has run campaign ads showing how much he's fought against republicans. wtf?


and while i'm on the topic of stupidity and complete and utter morons - i'd like to take a look at drivers. if you cannot obey traffic laws - you are a moron. if you can obey them and choose to ignore them - you are a moron. if you speed more than 5 miles over the speed limit - you are a moron. if you cannot use your turn signal - you are a moron. i am seriously sick of people talking about how bad teenage drivers are. in the past oh - year - i could probably count on two hands the number of idiot teenage drivers i've encountered. adults on the other hand - shit - i don't have the time to count that high. you get your drivers licences when you're 16. after that you have to renew it. you might have to retake in written test when you become so old and senile that you can't even remember what a car is for. how stupid is this? people should be required to retake the driving and written portion of this test every 10 years (at least). because i'm telling you - teenagers are not our biggest concern. adults are.


and with that i conclude my nightly rant.

51. One More Thing....

....lest i sound hypocritical myself let me add that i understand there will always be those who feel that homosexuality is disgusting. they have the right to feel that way. they do not have the right to deny them equal rights. period.

50. Ignorance

i'm in the process of watching (although now i'm just listening to) the vice presidential debate. the topic of gay rights came up. i can't even begin to explain how angry hearing these ignorant fucks talk about this makes me. how fucking stupid can people be?


if you don't like swearing go read someone else's blog....


how people can have a problem with two consenting adults having a loving relationship boggles my mind. i'm literally so angry i can barely form sentences.


people who call homosexuality gross and disgusting are fucking ignorant bastards and in my opinion don't deserve the rights they have. i had a co-worker say to me that he saw to guys kiss on the street and it freaked him out. he was also kinda freaked out by a guy waiting in our lobby who happened to have a pink ipod and be knitting. really? what exactly about any of those behaviors affects your life? i remember hearing al franken say that just because he sees two men holding hands doesn't make him want to turn to his wife after 40 (don't know the exact number) years of marriage and say 'sorry honey - but that looks more fun.' if you are secure in your relationships than seeing someone else's - gay or straight shouldn't fucking affect you. the fact that it disgusts you shows how ignorant you really are.


and most people oppose this on a religious stance. they say it's not what god intended. how in the fuck do they know what god intended. and even if god did intend marriage to be between a man and a woman - religion in this country is supposed to be separate from the government and the last time i checked just saying 'i do' in your church did not mean you were married. marriage is a fucking legal contract - legal. you go to the courthouse to get it. so fucking take god out of it. if you believe in god and believe that marriage is between a man and a woman then fine - but do not ever tell me that god fucking dictates what i have the right to do in my personal life. ever.


hypocrites are what those people are. they go on and on about 'love thy neighbor' and then go protest that their neighbor bill is going to hell because he lives with his partner Sam. fuck that. if all these damned religious people are so up and mighty on the topic of marriage exactly why do they go to such lengths to deny that jesus had any kind of relationship (and god forbid an actual marriage) to mary? aren't those people big on marriage and then lots of babies? but according to them jesus didn't do any of that. perhaps jesus wasn't married - perhaps he was gay.


and then there are the fucks that go on and on and on and fucking on about whether it's something your born with or a choice. WHO THE FUCK CARES. i should be able to decide tomorrow that i'm fucking gay and not have it affect anyone but myself. so you're born with it. so you choose. i could care less. either way you still deserve to share the same legal rights as everyone else.

sorry if this blog isn't completely coherent. like i said i'm just incredibly angry right now. i just do not understand on any level how people who are anti-gay rights and anti-gay period do not see that this is just like racism. segregation. you are segregating a couple from seeing each other in the hospital. from sharing the same rights as other couples. yet most of these people will tell you that racism is wrong and that segregating is wrong but i don't see a difference - do you?


writing this has not calmed me down like i hoped it would. hearing both parties talk about this bullshit makes me not want to vote for either one. how can we tolerate such ignorance to lead our country? how?


why can't someone get up there and point out the fact that all of this is bull. because god forbid you tell the american people they're ignorant. well you know what america - a lot of you fucking are and you need to start looking a little harder at that fucking flag you fly. look a little harder at that constitution. liberty for all. justice for all. freedom from religious persecution. not just for the heterosexual.